Girls make me feel really uncomfrotable and I dont like it when they check me out
So I basically have no self esteem self worth or confidence. I've tried lifting weights but nothing works. I'm seeing a counsellor and on medication but its taking too long to work.
I really hate my sister because she always rebukes me and insults me all the time. She's younger than me and I don't know what her problem is. All the girls I've ever liked have been really horrible to me ever since we were kids.
My mum is also really clingy and annoying. I developed depression and suicidal feelings because of a girl. I also have no friends.
What do I do? I'll be starting uni in September and I want to lose my virginity during freshers as I'm sick of being alone all the time and feeling worthless.
I just really hate women.