Great :(

by Sweet dreams
(United States)

Hi, I am 20 years old. Ive been working and paying rent, helping my family out since I was 15. I live at home with my mom, dad, brother, and his girlfriend. My room is the living room.


I got my license but I don't have a car. According to everyone I suck at driving....... Yet I've never hit or crashed....... anyways besides that when I was young I never thought I was smart. My confidence sucks. I try and save money it doesn't really happen. Its always going to my family. I don't have a real bed. I don't have many friends I'd say I have one.

My biggest issue is I am so lost and depressed I don't want to be around anyone. I force myself to smile while at work. My best friend I once had ended up on drugs. I want to go to college. I also have to work........... My dad is constantly threatening to kick my bro and I out. Even though we pay rent, cook, and clean. I wish I could have a different life because mines just crumbing to pieces.

When I was 17 a guy I loved got hit by a car. He survived but I've never been the same since. He's not the same at all he can not remember if you call him talk to him. But he knows he loves God...... I used to know God but I feel forsaken.... Left to deal with everything on my own... I know I sound pathetic but I was hoping this might help me.

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Survival
by: Anonymous

Your parents survived before you were born and I'm sure they can survive if you move out. Take care of your life for now.
Great ;(
by: Anonymous

You are working, is your brother working as well, if so I think you should look at finding somewhere else to live, it might solve your problems. Mind you, you will have to budget, make sure you can pay the rent and your outgoings.
There is always someone out there whom you are friendly with that you can talk about this setup with them.
It is depressing living in such a situation and once you are free of it and have sorted yourself out you will go ahead.
Great
by: Kay

Stay strong, you are having a hard time at the moment. It's all getting on top of you, but believe it or not how you are is the result of your own thoughts. Everything you do is the result of your thoughts. No one can choose them but you. When you aren't happy with how you are you hold the key to changing. No one can do this for you, only you.

How is this done? By changing the thoughts you have about yourself. Self talk is vital, it has to be positive, it has to be loving towards you. You can change if you make the effort. Stop today with all the negative thoughts you have, change them to positive and move forward with confidence into a new life of your choosing.

I hope you can relate to what has been said, it may seem a bit harsh, but hopefully you will see it as the truth, that you can come to believe that with the right attitude things can improve and that if you choose you can make your life happier.

Good luck
Love,
Kay

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