I feel lost.

I am a 27 year old wife and mother of two, and a full time college student. I have come to the point were everything is just getting to be too much, I walk around trying to make everyone else happy and if I can't make them happy I feel very guilty. I stress about everything, it is like I can't get my mind to calm down.


I think I am dumb, ugly and fat, even if other people say I am not. I hate being around other people that are not close to me I find myself not really leaving the house unless I really have to. The biggest problem for me is that, I can't say no to anyone not even to my husband. He is a good man and has never hurt me. I have very low self esteem and I hate the way I look, months a go I let him take nude photos of me even though I hated it I could not say no to him. I told him a couple days a go how I really felt about the nude photos and he felt bad about it but really it was not his fault it was mine. Now I feel very extremely guilty about how I let it happened, how it makes him feel, how I see myself and I am having a really hard time getting over it. I really don't know what I should do.

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I feel lost.
by: Anonymous

This is a common enough problem, take a look at all the positive aspects of your life. You are caring for your home and your family and you are furthering your education, that is a big plus. You feel that sometimes you do not belong, I think we all feel like that at times. You need to look around you for some further interest. What are your friends interested in, do they share the same goals as you do. Is their view of life a bit narrow at times. You must be secretly interested to find out a few things and I would go for that. Do you read, what activities are you attracted to. We make changes as we grow older and our circumstances change with that.
If you feel unhappy about those photos it would be wise to destroy them.
At the moment you feel stuck but the time will come when you are able to make changes and move on.
Other people around you may feel just the same as you. They may seem happy on the surface but not underneath.

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