ILL AND TIRED, JUST NEED TO DIE

by Ben
(usa,tx)

I AM VERY ILL AND TIRED.

I HAVE NO WILL TO GO ON.
I AM NOT ABLE TO TAKE CARE
OF MYSELF, I NEED THE COURAGE
TO END THIS SUFFERING BUT I DON'T
EVEN HAVE THAT.I'M AT THE END OF
MY ROPE HANGING BY A THREAD AND CAN'T
LET GO.I WISH I KNEW HOW TO GET SOMETHING
TO TAKE INTERNALLY TO JUST PEACEFULLY END THE
SUFFERING. IF ANYONE HAS ANY ADVICE, I WILL BE MOST GRATEFUL IF YOU PLEASE LET ME KNOW, THANKS,BK
----------------------------

THIS DISEASE STALKS ME,
AS IT SLOWLY TAKES AWAY THE LIFE
THAT I ONCE HAD...
NOW I HAVE A LIFE OF PAIN,
BOTH EXTERNAL AND INTERNAL...
I FIGHT A BRUTAL FIGHT EACH AND EVERY DAY

NO LONGER AM I THE ONE THAT IS FULL OF
"LIFE".
NOW I AM THE ONE FULL OF ANGER AND PAIN.
IF I COULD HAVE MY LIFE BACK TO
BEING THE SAME...
I WOULD-BUT THAT IS A DREAM THAT
IS NOT A PART OF MY LIFE ANYMORE.
SO, NOW I GO ON LIVING AND
SUFFERING
TRYING TO BE
"ME".
THIS STALKING WOLF IS ALWAYS
BEHIND-
IN FRONT-
BESIDE-
INSIDE...
OF+ME!
THERE IS NOWHERE TO RUN
AND THERE IS NOWHERE TO HIDE.

SO NOW MY LIFE IS ONLY
A LIFE OF PAIN,
WHERE I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER BE THE
"SAME".
I
JUST NEED PEACE...
PLEASE, UNDERSTAND AND LET ME BE...

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Deep inside of you
by: Anonymous

Hi,deep inside of you is a little voice thats saying' I am NOT going to let life cheat me out of happiness'. This is what I did, when things got so bad, I didnt see the point of going on.
I refused to let tablets prop me up all my life,and thought ' whatever it takes, I am going to find out about life and ME'
Then I set about starting to help me, starting to like myself, then love myself. And to STOP being so hard on my self. Years later, with the help of websites like this, I discovered what had happened to me. When I was born, my brother hated me. Because he wanted all the attention. As I grew up, I grew up with very low self esteem, and FEAR. He had done this to me. Incrediously, I began to realise, that all those years ago, when I used to get depressions, every couple of years, have this sadness at the very core of me,that never went away. And also low self esteem and no confidense, this person that I used to call my brother, who by the way,I discovered, had a personality disorder,( a Narcissist) also tried to make me feel ashamed, small, as though I had no right to be on this planet.

As soon as I pieced all of this together, overnight, my world changed for the better! I had been a good person all along, and this Narcissist had tried to destroy my life, because he wanted all the attention( and still does), and was terrified I would do better in life than he did. I feel sorry, for anyone that ends up like that. Because I am not like that.
What I am saying is, that no matter what it is, if you are not ill with a body ailment, you CAN do something about it.
Only you yourself can start that process. Good luck

ill and tired. just need to die.
by: Anonymous

Take comfort you are never alone, do you believe in angels, I am sure that your own angel guardian is there to help you and others that you love but you cannot see are there with you.
What about your family members, they are there to give you comfort and support,.
You have my prayers that you will see some light to help and support you. God bless

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