low self esteem
by mariya
(north america)
I'm average weight(5'4 1/2" and 120-130lb), light medium skin tone with light blonde hair and ocean colored eyes. I know I'm not fat but I always feel fat. I have low self esteem, although I do stand up for my self, though usually more often for friends.
I want to dress more daring, but I can not get my nerves up to wear something daring although I really want to. The few times I got my nerve up to wear something daring I had this one girl laugh at me when I walked by, same girl all those few times.
I hate how people don't even want to get to know as soon as they find out I'm Russian, don't get me wrong I have plenty of friends. I've never really been able to get along well with the other Russian girls. I just want people to accept me for who I am and I want to some how get my nerve up again so I could wear something daring.