self confidence and self esteem

by Kylie M.
(pennsylvania)

Well, I am just a 13 year old girl who hasn't really ever felt good about herself. I don't resort to cutting or anything...

I just don't understand why I can feel joy around my friends, then just be completely alone when I'm not there. I act weird and funny around everyone but really I'm hurting inside. I don't get why though, because I have everything I want and need... I have a family and awesome friends but I don't understand how I still hurt inside. But I do know part of it is because I am very down about things I do. I never think I do anything right... and I also can't look in a mirror at all. If I do, I run to my room and cry because when I look in the mirror I just see an ugly girl who happens to share my name.

I am rarely complimented by any males in my school or females. I just feel like I was born to be a symbol of failure. I want to find a way to not feel this way anymore. I don't like it when I feel this way but I can't seem to be able to feel good about myself at all...

And that's me in the red shirt for the photo.